New to this

It seems lately I have become more able to do things. Partially because I am learning to do things on my own. My husband Carl J. Ware was killed in Iraq last July by someone who was suppose to be on our side. I do not want to talk about it too much because the trial is coming up in April and I do not want to compromise anything that will be happening. But, I was pregnant with our second and third child when he left. I lost one of the twins a week before he passed and I thought that would be the hardest thing I ever did. I was wrong. Being without Carl is hard I am learning that me and the girls have to do this together. Carl would have been home a few weeks before our second daughter, Carly was born. She would have been named Savannah but given the situation a name change seemed appropriate. She was born on Jan 5 2007. Then there is Caitlyn our first little one. She is an awesome big sister but she still asks where her Daddy is and I have no clue what to say. Well That is my life right now.